Goodbye - in print.

The words goodbye usually means that two people or more may not see each other for sometime. When someone says "bye," it's usually casual, said to a friend or a family member that you will see in a few hours or in the near future. But the word "Goodbye." has a deeper meaning. Usually when it is a good-bye. It will be for a long time, such as forever. 

I am not going to lie when I say my boyfriend and I had recently broke up. He once told me that we should and could stay friends. That hope has been in the back of my head for a while, but that thought that it is impossible grows progressively more and more with each passing day. We were inseperable for our senior year, and we thought that's how it would always be. 

But as the world knows, things change and so do people. We broke up after graduation, and I guess I haven't had time to think about it, or worry about him or not having him in my life. But when I was in the hospital today, being rushed to emergency the only thing I could think of is that he is not here to know or care. 

It's a sob story, I know. But today I realize how much I put on him, and depended on him. I recently told my friend that I am going to "Floof" life away. Meaning, not worry as much, and just have fun.

 To love someone, is to love them unconditionally and be together through everything. To say that you love someone and to actually mean it is something completely different. I told my friend that I wasn't going to date, just have fun. It is true that we are young, and being young is the only time to have fun. Because once you start to grow up, you being more and more occupied, things change, and there is less time for fun activities, or just meeting up with friends. I thought to myself that I don't want to go through having a broken heart, I don't feel like having strong feelings for someone especially if they are going to be thrown out eventually.

 The moral of the story is: Smile. Have fun, and don't worry AS much. Take life seriously but let go of everything in the past. What's done is done. And no one can change your future but you.