X marks the spot.

I have been so busy lately. I can't even think of how to begin to tell you how busy I have been. I have worked both jobs everyday. And after that I would go out with friends until the morning, or sunrise. Then the cycle would start again. I thought I would go to bed, and hit the hay a happy/busy girl. But my family had other plans. At 3:30 in the morning I got a phone call that my sister in law was in labour, and we had to drive an hour to an hour and a half to Markham!

He is the most beautiful and pure this in the world. I actually couldn't believe how adorable he is. He is so small, and perfect. He doesn't cry or fuss. Easy to please. So handsome. You can see all his beautiful features. And I can't help but think and hope that I'm going to be the BEST aunty naf in this world. That's all I can hope for. To help him, love and protect him. I love my little X.

Horoscope...

The stars are still speaking of love, so why aren't you finding it?

First thing you have to ask yourself is,

are you looking in the right place?

Then you have to figure out what you are looking for. After that, the stars will guide you to where love can find you.

You CAN Have Your Cake & Eat It Too!

Have you ever heard, you can't have your cake and eat it too ...

That's something I don't understand about people. Why do they have to make everything SO complicated ? And question everything?!

I can fully have my cake and eat it too...

I'm having it, by enjoying it, and eating it.

Duh!

Stop making life soooo difficult.

Stop questioning the obvious.

Hannah . . .

Every long lost dream, lead me to where you are. The others who broke my heart, they were like Northern Stars. Pointing me on my way into your loving arms. THis much I know is true... That God blessed the broken road that lead me straight to you ...

Funny the way it works out...

Isn't life a barrel of laughs? Some people take life too seriously, and question everything.

Why can't the world just be optimistic and hope for the best.

It's funny how people can put a label on anything and will put it on everything. They make a good friendship a relationship, they make fondness into love. Humans, we complicate things. Maybe we need labels, or answers or closure. None the less, I find it unnecessary.

It's funny the way things work out, often.. more times then not one person can dwell on something...blah blah blah, but in the end, at some point.. their life will get better.

In my head, you can never hit rock bottom. And always, people will surprise you and make you happy, again.

It's funny the way it works out... someone makes you unhappy, and then another can make you float on clouds. Details... soon to come...

It's a First.

I know some people who feel alone, or lost or confused. And I don't have an amazing quote to insert here, or a whitty phrase. But all I can say is: Good luck comes to those who create it and to those who take a positive approach to every moment.

I guess, find your happy place, and the silver lining !

Dearest friends.

I have friends and people going through a lot right now. And not necessarily all at the same level, but they can all relate to a current hardship. I know a couple splitting up. I know a couple fighting. I know a guy stressing. I know a guy who is way to calm about life. I know another guy who is so depressed he makes the room dim.

It's sad that there are so many people that I know and see as great people but going through so much. I can't help much with the couples. They have to work that out. But my dearest friends, I can't help them all. And I wish I could.

This one guy, all I can do is sit and listen to him while he talks about a very confusing situation. I don't know what to tell him, or how to help. But all I keep thinking is, every time he talks to someone about what he has to deal with his brain inflates more. To me, he is a great person, helpful, trustworthy, happy, confident. And I have heard him say that he doesn't like when people see him in a certain way. But I can't help it. To me, all he has been is fabulous. I can't help but think that this poor guy is being swirled in circles when all he deserves is happiness and relief. I wish him the best of luck out of all, I care for him so much. I just want things to straighten up, and him to feel better.

But I am looking forward to seeing him a ton next year!

Mixing it up a little...

I can't wait for the rest of the week. I don't even know how to describe it. Everyday is jam packed! I can't wait for Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday -Friday-Saturday . OMG.

Tonight, I dont think I have laughed SO hard in the longest time. I blame my close friend, he put me in a situation I didn't feel confident going into. But it just goes to show how awesome his friends, and they all are. I knew some of them, by the end, I knew all of them. And love them all, and possible him more. It was a bundle of laughs! Great food! Funny jokes! You have no idea !

Thank a bunch buddy :]

BEAUTIFUL .

Sore and secretive.

All alone.

In a little bit more pain.

Worth the wait.

What a nervous wreck.

What a day...

What a year.

Try to forget.

Always forgive.

I dont know what to say.

But I'll shine through.

Without you.

My friend wrote this... isn't she beautiful?

In a Pickle

I'm in a bind,

Again.

I don't know how to get out of it.

How to express it.

How to deal with it.

The thoughts that are going through my head...

if you could only hear,

you would think I'm crazy.

I trip over your words,

I fall over you.

I'll scream and you'll be there!

So I was talking to my friend tonight, and she is going to Guelph. Which of course, I'm not happy about at all. I can't believe she is leaving me. We have been close for two years, and although she and I met through work, she will always be the best thing I gained from work. We are going to stay close, I find myself in the direction of Guelph all the time. So everything will stay the same.

Our phone numbers, our texting plans, msn, and our computers. We plan on staying just as close. She said it perfectly, "We can stop talking for a while, and when we see each other or send each other texts we're like glue again!" And it's true, that's what I love about her and I. We are .. in sync, not to be confused with the boy band.

So my best buddy and I made plans today, but they fell through because I got sick. Not cool. But he ended up taking me out later, as we walked around Streetsville, ate shawarma's, drank coffee, slushies and had ice cream... I remembered his birthday is coming up. I think he is possibly the most mellow guy I have ever met, he hasn't hurt me, and I doubt he ever will. When we make plans, it's only a text or two, he is a 5 minute walk away, and just a phone call away. I don't know how he can be so calm, and relaxed about life. I have never seen him mad, and often you can get the feeling that he doesn't really care what's going on in anyone else's life except his, because let's be honest, he can be a dick. But he does. And he showed that side today, which I was truly shocked about. When I was telling him what has been happening in my life lately, he had a minor spazz in the car. It was adorable that he actually cares about me. And he knows I love him back, I tell him all the time.

The moral of this blog is that things never work out the way that you plan. And things never really are what they seem. My other bestest buddy, he has little to no faith in people, whereas I do. I believe that people can change, for the better for the worst but they shouldn't get second chances. I believe that people can surprise you on a daily basis.

Like again, take today into account. I had no plans for the upcoming weekend and week ahead of me... but all of a sudden, I'm going shopping on Friday and I have a date. Saturday I work and then get to spend some serious bonding time with my cousins. And Sunday I get to have a fun filled day with my lady friends. The week coming up Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday all booked up. It's amazing how people can shock you. And that's why I have faith that even though when things are rough, they will get better no matter what. You can't go much further then rock bottom, and when you have, the only place left to go is up.

With a friend like THIS, who needs enemies?

So, I think I found my lobster.

For those of you who don't know what I mean, watch Friends! I was talking to my friend, whom I've known for a long time, but recently became really close with. He's pretty awesome in my opinion.

I have been talking to him about some pretty serious stuff lately, and to be honest. He's the greatest guy friend ever. He definitely wins the award.

We're so awesome because we're so straight up with each other, and we don't take anything to heart really. Unless it's how awesome we both are. We both know that at some point in our relationship we will disappoint each other, but I trust enough that we are going to be better then that. It's hard to put it into words.

But I've realized one thing today: I need a clone of him.

I'm serious. Dead serious.

He's taller then me, wiser then me, has awesome hair and teeth! Has a tattoo (1000 brownie points right there!) And he's strong, smart, happy, calm. And smells fabulous!

I need to clone him before I die of old age.

We Like To Party All The Time

Sooo today was I swear! The hottest day of the year! I was dieing, and I had to go to a bbq at my friend's house.

I went there, and met a few boys (which of course I was very excited about!) And I don't know what to tell you , I was there with a ton of people I knew, and a ton I didn't know.

It amazes me how mature older people are then my group. Like I have mature friends, but when we're all together, we're retarded. It's like the older people- obv more mature. But the grade after us are definitely more wise.

I don't know, that was my intoxicated rant.

Five PM

A word's just a word until you mean what you say

Love isn't love until you give it away

Just smile and the world will smile along with you

Be a part, Reach a Heart!

I've never realized how terrible people can be. You can try your hardest to be the better person, to not let anything bother you. You can try and make you and others happy. But the only thing to do is keep yourself busy, stay optimistic and smile. I recently doubted the strength of a smile, and questioned how creepy it is to pass it on...

But after talking to a great friend of mine, he enlightened me.. with just his laugh how comforting or soothing a smile or voice can be. Although he is five minutes away, close yet far, he is there for me. And just him taking the time out of his night to talk to me about the crazy actions of others means the world to me.

My point is, being optimistic, laughing more, and staying happy will bring you happiness, friends and love.

My other friend and I were sitting on a curb and she was telling me that she just wants someone to text or talk to. To make her feel excited and goose-bumpy inside. And I realized you don't need a significant other, but all you need is a significant friend to get the happy goose-bumps. I suggest you also find your pale tattooed friend. :]

Fabulous Intentions.

I came onto my computer having the intention to write a fabulous blog. Of course, while I was sitting in the car, with the windows down, no music on except the sound of the wind... I had the most amazing mind track? Are those the words? Anyways, I was sitting in the car, and I was just thinking about the most randomest things in the WORLD! But they all made sense.

My mind was mainly thinking about what I have recently heard my friend say. He is a wise boy. Younger then me, but wise beyond his years. I am amazed at the knowledge that he holds.

Anyways, I was in the car thinking about summer. And how great everything has been going. I've been to multiple parties, sleep overs, friends, the beach, a ton of coffee dates! A new job, going back to school. I can't wait for summer to end so the school year can start and I can put my brain to the test! That's all I have to say.

Goodbye, I'm going out! :]... again!

Send It On

I surprisingly wrote down the lyrics while I heard the song once.

Read, study, learn.

a word's

just a word

until you mean what you say

and love isn't love

until you give it away

we've all gotta gift

yes, something to give

to make a change

send it on

on and on

just one that can heal another

be a part

reach a heart

just one spark starts a fire

with one little action

a chain's reaction

will never stop

make it strong

shine a light and send it on

just smile

and the world

will smile along with you

that small act of love

is meant for one

will become two

if we take the chances

to change circumstances

imagine all that we can do

if we send it on

on and on

just one hanging in another

be a part

reach a heart

just one spark stars a fire

with one little action

the chain reaction will never stop

make us strong

shine a light and send it on

send it on

there's power in all the choices we make

so I'm starting now there's not a moment to wait

a word's

just a word,

until you mean what you say

and love

isn't love

until you give it away

send it on

on and on

just one that can heal another

be apart

reach a heart

just one spark starts a fire

with one little action

the chain reaction will never stop

make it strong

shine a light

and send it on

on and on

just one that can heal another

be apart

reach a heart

just one spark starts a fire

with one little action

a chain reaction

a helping start

make it strong

shine a light and send it on

shine a light and send it on.

If you haven't guessed it by now... or YouTubed it.. It's a Disney Song! OF COURSE! :]

Smile Pretty for the Camera ...

I once read "If someone doesn't have a smile, give them yours." I read it somewhere a couple years ago, and I read it recently on my friends blog. He's a smart cookie.

When you think about it, a smile can change the world. For better or for worse. It is possible to trust anyone with a smile, because behind the shining white teeth you see someone who is confident, and happy in their skin. However, behind someone's smile they maybe hiding a horrible story about their life that could traumatize you. They could be lying to you. Or just being fake in general.

A smile is a great tool to show people, or make people believe that you are happy. But it is a devious tool. It tricks people into thinking that you are happy, it tricks the world into feeling comfort in you.

I don't know what I'm rambling on about. But I do have a question... How trustworthy are smiles? And should we be passing on the false hopes of our smiles to theirs?

Photography to Pumpkins!

Today I was out with a buddy of mine. We went to bucksies.. AKA-defeating the purpose of me working out. I haven't known him for long, but the times that I do talk to him, I'm so comfortable. I feel like we have been friends for years, and I can almost talk to him about anything without giving him the background details. I love that he listens and won't say anything to anyone.

Even though I have been a friend with him for some time now, he is one of the few men/guys.. whatever. That I feel so comfortable around. I can't even tell you. I'm not a fan of the way I look, or sound. But with this guy, I feel like I could call him, or text him, or bug this crap out of him, looking like a mess, and he would make me feel so comfortable.

The only thing that worries me is that.. I once trusted a guy too soon, and that was my mistake. I don't think I'm making this mistake by trusting.. let's call him Pumpkin. Because with him, my mouth rambles and our laughter flows naturally.

I admire him. You have no idea. He is calm, and realistic, and he loves people, and has so much faith in people. He's kind-hearted, and I can't talk about how awesome he is. I have seen him all stoic, and I admire every aspect of him.

I can''t really talk about what we talked about, or how much more comfortable he made me feel about my friends and next year. But all I can say is... Photography to Pumpkins. :]

People Change.

"Second chances never matter, people never change." That statement is true. Quote on quote, performed by Paramore. It is true to extent that people don't change when you give them a second chance to change. I can prove it myself, I didn't change. People never do, they can try with all their might, and hope for the best, and change their ways. But it is actually impossible, unless you have a life changing experience that changes you. Such as, developing cancer, or looking down the barrel of a 9mm gun.

However, people do change. And I often find that it's for the worst. It is my mistake to trust someone, or think that they are different from all the rest. I'm not going to get into the hairy details of everything that goes on in my life, because they are getting told, right, left, and center from people I'm not fond of. I don't hate anyone, I just disagree with them, and that they're topic of conversation just happens to be my life. Ugh!

All I wanted to say, is that people never change. You can't try and give anyone a second chance. They just don't work. And never assume that anyone is different from their friends, or that they won't change because of the people that they hang out with. All I'm saying is that you shouldn't trust anyone right away. It most likely won't be good for you.

What a play ground !

Today was an interesting day to say the very least. It rained hard core all morning, and then it stopped, got completely mucky/humid/gross outside, then it proceeded to rain all night long, like a thunderstorm . But that is besides the point of this blog. The point of this blog is because I was wandering why is it that when we are children, we realize that the world is our playground, but sometime along the way we forget that. I don't understand how it is so hard to grasp that concept.

Why are adults always afraid of the world, the world is a place of endless opportunities. It is a place to make the impossible quite possible. It is the place where you can experience everything... and live to tell the stories.

This is just my little thought. Sorry!

Oh Ms. Dearie!

I have been working at my job for the past two years, and I love it more and more every time I go in. I have been working at the Gap, and to be honest... I didn't think that I would love it as much as I do, but it's like I'm a Gapper for life! I have worked there every weekend since I have started, and my skills have grown significantly.

I was working there yesturday, during our Friends and Family Give and Get program, where you recieve 30% off The Gap, Old Navy and Banana Republic. It wasn't too busy, because it was so beautiful outside. It was a gorgeous day, however I found it strange the my customers were telling me things.. things about myself, or something they thought about me.

It is not uncommon for customers to compliment employees, or share stories, we try and build relationships with them. However I had, maybe three or four customers tell me that I sound like Blossom Dearie. First I thought to myself, "Who the heck are these people? And why do they ALL think alike?" But I looked her up, and I love the songs that she sang. Blossom was most popular in the 60's and had fabulous voice, smile, poise and look. I really like what I found out.

I guess what I am try to say is that.. everyday you can be surprised by what people tell you. You can learn and grow from the unexpected. I am very glad that I listened to her song, and learned to SMILE more. Because after listening to Ms. Dearie. I really look into account how people were complimenting me and what she would sing. I don't know , maybe I am crazy. But I thought I would share that story with you.

I have SO much more to say, I just need time to write it all down. I am becoming SO tired of all the things that are happening in my life, and all the stuff I have to do. It's a crazy life, but I like it. Thanks for reading! See ya'll later ! :]