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Everyone has to write about it at some point in time. It is the ever looming emotion that people want to feel, at some point in time. You could be the coldest, most self-centered person I know... But at some point in time, you don't want to feel alone. You want to have someone. You want to feel a little sliver of love, from someone.

Love is what keeps people dreaming at night, wishing on stars and at 11:11 at night or in the morning, it keeps us going back to bars or putting ourselves in awkward party situations. All in hopes that we will find someone in the crowd to get along with, that we'll want to smile and laugh with, talk to and maybe even exchange numbers. Love is what keeps us smiling after meeting someone we are "compatible," with and hoping at the end of the night they aren't thinking about anyone else. Love is what keeps the butterflies in our stomaches, the twinkle in our eyes and the sparks flying between people.

It's what we read about in books, see around us... at bus stops, in the bus, at the mall, in school, online, offline. Everywhere. It consumes our hearts and without it, most likely than not; a lot of people feel lost without it and are searching or waiting for it to come into their hearts.

I used to tell people to stop searching for it because as soon as you do, it will find you. That was the advice my grandmother had given me before she had her stroke and I'm not going to lie and say that I am madly in love at the moment, but I will tell you the truth and say that I did find someone to grow up with and come closer with every time I did stop searching for love. It's not that I had searched for "the one." It's that I was searching for someone to spend that extra time with, to text or call at night, for that someone to want to spend time with me. And eventually I did. Granted, it doesn't always last long... And it may not end the way that Disney wants it to end. But my life is not a fairytale, nor is anyone else's. If you put your love in the hands of the wrong person, it can become unhealthy for both of you and lead down a slippery unpleasant slope.

But! I don't believe love sets us up for failure and I don't believe that love can change everything or make everything better. I believe that love is there to make us feel a little happier and in the end I believe that it is to fill our hearts and have someone that we can grow old with. I believe love is helping us find that someone that we can call and share things with, to hold hands with, the smile and laugh with. Every time is different, I just believe you have to hold out and wait and see.