Why is it? Is it for the love of the song? And if so, why can't we ever remember to listen to it days or weeks later... Why is it so temporary to us? I guess I shouldn't say "us," it could just be me. Why is everything so temporary to me? I would like to think that things or events or people in my life are long-term. And as much as I wish them to be, are they really?
I know my sister has been the most consistent thing in my life. I know that our bond is quite unusual to most, but you will never know why we are so close until you know us completely; that could take a lifetime. But everything changes. Good things will eventually fade and bad times will eventually pass. I even want a tattoo on my shoulder that says, "This too shall pass." Because it will. Everything will. The song I've been listening to on repeat, my unemployment, my feelings towards a person, my ambitions and goals. And it's not even non-tangible items, it's physical things too! I'm losing weight, my eye sight will change, I'll shrink at some point. Everything changes.
I think I like to listen to something on repeat because it's consistent for that point in time. For the emotion I'm feeling or if it's getting me in the mood to paint or write something on this blog. I guess everyone has to except that things are changing. Everything, constantly. And the sad part is is that we want to stay where we are, forever. And if not forever, for a long period of time. I guess repeat is the only source of permanent feeling for us. Repeat.
I would repeat a lot of things. A lot of happy events. But I don't think I would like to relive the same day everyday, that'd get boring. So maybe the longest amount of stability we can handle is a song one repeat. Even if it is for a night or to relive a feeling for a couple times during the week. I guess it doesn't matter, but for tonight... This song will be on repeat.
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