2009

2009 was the year to fuck up.

2009 was the year to get screwed over.

2009 was the year to forget.

2009 was supposed to be a great year.

2009 was the year you learnt who your friends are, and who matters.

2009 was the year to remember everything you learned.

2009 was the year to grow from.

2009 was to regret.

2009 was the year to forget.

2009 was the year to get comfortable.

2009 was the year to be blown out of the water.

2009 was the year to meet new faces.

2009 was the year to forget old faces.

2009 was the year to party hard.

2009 was the year to fuck up.

2010 will be better.

Fail.

I have been failing like MAD! with my blog, and for that.. I apologize. But there is no time in a day. I have so much to say, no time to say it. Once more I apologize.

UPDATE:

Single? Nay.

Doggie? Better then ever.

Sister? Still cooking up a storm.

Mom and dad? Do you really care?

Brother/Sister in law? awesome!

Xavier (the nephew)? CUTER THEN EVER!

THE SITUATION

there is so much going on right now.

not necessarily bad, not at all.

a lot of drama?-yes

a lot of confusion?-yes

i just think, I need time.. time to figure it out.

What you need to do.

Move On.

Don't hack.

Don't creep.

Leave,

Me,

Alone.

Move On?

Merry Christmas.

You have to have a little bit of faith in people. I sometimes think that I am the only one who does. I was driving out of the parking lot a night or two ago, and I was turning onto EMills PKWY, standing at the bus stop was a guy, who looked really cold, shivering, and had no gloves.

I took the initative to pull over, and ask if he was okay. He said yes, and continued to shiver. I asked him what bus he was waiting for, he said something, to connect to the 44. I take the 44. I asked him where he lived, and assured him I wasn't a killer. He told me, near Streetsville. I live near Streetsville.

I insisted to for him to get in the car, he did. He assured me he wasn't a killer. He thanked me numerous times and said it usually takes him an hour and half to get home, not including the 1/2 hour walk to his door. I felt so bad, he takes care of his younger sister, and works two jobs. One during the day, the other at night. He can't afford a car, and can barely afford the basement apartment they live in. But he does fine with what he has. His younger sister is off to university next year. So am I. He doesn't know how he will support her, but he will try. I dropped him off, not 10 minutes from my house. He thanked my again, and wished me the best Christmas ever. I did the same.

He has stayed in my head since then. All I'm saying is have a little faith in people. Believe in them. Help others out. People still surprise me to this day.

uuuuuuni

What happens when you do something to find yourself, but it just takes you on a path that makes you more confused. I can try as hard as possible, but it is impossible to know what I like, or what I want to do with myself. Where should I go? What should I do? Where do I apply?

WHAT DO I DO?

Read Much

There is so much that I read, and take in. Whether it's through other blogs, the newspapers, websites or books. I take it all in. And try incorporate the good in my life. Is it bad that I live my life through quotes.

Walls.

There are no more walls,

No more bull-shit.

Nothing left for you to figure out,

For me to question.

For us to argue over,

Or trouble our friends about.

It's done.

Everything is.

Was it a waste?

I could tell you.

Do you want an answer?

I don't think so.

I know what's happening,

What has happened.

I'll keep going,

That's all I know.

Do it.

Creep.

WHY?!

I know why I did it all.

I could explain everything.

In an instant.

Just listen,

And I'll tell.

Deja Vu?

It's not that,

Not Deja Vu.

It's a simple memory,

Almost a flashback.

I don't know if they are good,

Or bad.

Every time I remember...

Every time I think:

"The last time I was here..."

I remember.

I reminisce.

On everything I did,

You did,

They did.

On everything I believed,

You believed,

The lies.

On all the fun,

the tears,

the hate,

the doubt.

I don't know what to remember.

I wonder.

PLANS

I have all these plans.

Ready to put into action.

Ready to go.

I have everyone I love, backing me up.

And I have me, to believe.

I have all these plans.

Ready to start.

And I'm starting today.

There is just TOO MUCH!

I have learnt so much in the past weeks, in the past months, in the past year. I have grown, vertically, and mentally as well as emotionally.

I realize things I didn't before.

I'm fine now.

I'm happier now.

I smile more.

That's always a great sign.

Imma HERE!

I'm here, in the Comm Tech Room !

With Armstrong and Chad :]

"Thank You Mama!"

I know I'm like a typical kid or teen that bitches and complains about their parents. Like, my dad is always busting the balls I don't have, and my mom and I annoy each other - ALL THE TIME.

But as much as I complain, and get upset at her, she's my mom. I can't change that. And sometimes I wish I had a different life... but when it comes down to it, I do like my life.

And the one thing that breaks my heart the most, is my mom, stumbling to go to a job that she hates, and gives her aches and pains just so she can pay bills.. it breaks my heart.

I hate that my mom has to do something she hates, and even though I don't say it, ever, I do appreciate the stuff she does for me... I do, Love Her.

Thanks bud!

My friend told me he reads my blog, and that I should do a blog just about me.. So here is all that I could come up with...

I have spacers in my ears because I like them better then normal earrings

I cut my hair for good reasons

My eyelashes are mine

I don't bite my nails, but I do pick at them

I hate chipped nail polish, but I rarely change it

I shuffle my feet

I can sing

I can play guitar, flute and clarinet

I enjoy my twitter, and I wish I had time for YouTube

By the end of this year I plan on having way more then 5 holes in my body, and keeping them

I love my tattoos, all of them

I don't regret anything, I learn from anything

I don't trust easily

I don't fall fast enough

My best friends have been my best friends for a while.

I love coffee, especially tea

I actually enjoy working out.

I truly believe my voice will either make or break me.

Music sets my mood.

I truly believe my brain has no more space left

I'm forgetful, unfunny, and small.

I hate tanning, yet I love the beach.

My favourite season is fall.

That's all I could think of :]

(L)

I've learnt a great deal in a short amount of time.

The best way I have ever heard it:

Do what you love, fuck the rest.

That's the best way, "AN" has ever put it.

I have learnt, not to rely on anyone, do what you want, love everyday, listen to the music that makes you happy, look for the silver lining, do something because you want to, don't let anyone stand in you way, your family are the only people you can rely on, tattoos are forever and always, piercing are awesome, tattoos are painful but worth it, dogs really can be your best friend.

I have also learnt, don't waste time with drama, listen, take it in, and let it go, no one should care, because it won't matter soon. Go out and party every weekend, it will make you happier. See you friends once a week, call your grandmothers on a regular basis, buy headphones that can drowned out the world. You are only in school for a short time, study while you have to. Don't let work and school interfere with your education, there are many boys in the world, take each with a grain of salt.

Those are just a few things I have learnt, and those few I keep close in my heart.

There is so much I want to do in the month of December,

Such little time.

Don't you ever wonder..

It's weird the way people compare you to others.

All the time, I'm compared.

I've tried to kind of step out of that, but it seems to be impossible.

There is always someone pairing me, side to side with someone else.

It's funny the ways things work out.

There are so many things going on, in my head. Currently.

TOO MUCH TO BLOG!

If you think about it

I can't remember the face of the guy in Blockbuster a week ago, or the nurse who administered by h1n1 shot. I didn't necessarily build great relationships with these people (even though I did get a phone number). I don't think I could pick them out of a lineup! Which, to me, is sad.

On another note!

I need to come up new years resolutions!

C&I

I want a great love like Cathy and Ian...

If you don't know who they are...

Too bad!

REBA

Van: It went like this.. "hee hee hee THUNK! hee hee hee THUNK!!"

Reba: OH MAH GASH! There's a monkey with a peg leg in my kitchen!

- i tinkled !

" YOU KICKED HIM?!"

So i was walking to my house from the parking lot - i live in a row of town houses, thats why i have a parking lot. then i see this guy walking a beautiful curly dog. he then kicks it in the leg and tells him to hurry up. THEN! i walk up to the man, and kick him in the leg. he goes "what the fuck was that for?!" so i told him "for kicking your dog!" he said "he's a dog!!" and i said "yes but he can feel it, and he has feelings!"

originiality

im sick of hearing people bitch and complain

about the lack of originality

the lack of good music

... some things can only be original, and once it's created .. its copied.

please stop complaining.

you would be doing my head a HUGE favour!

you may forget me

i wish you could hear

everything i say

everything i hear

how i take it in

i wish you could see

the way i see it all

everything

about you

about me

about the world.

about the ground under our feet

this is what i brought --this you can keep

-- isn't she talented^^ ?

Empty words

She walks the night, how many hearts will die tonight?

I worry about this path.

That's been taken...

Will things change? I guess I'll find out soon.

Needed: Initative, Inspiration, Music, Love.

Fix it. Fix her.

Let it be. Leave it alone.

Be calm.

Be there.

Her body aches, and there's nothing left to say.

There are just so many things that need to be said.

There are so many things that need to be put out into the world.

I need to tell you, tell the world.

I really need to figure this out.

Without you.

Dream

I have a dream

A song to sing

To help me cope

With anything

If you see the wonder

Of a fairytale

You can take the future

Even if you fail

\\A//

You protect me.

And I love you for that.

Happiness Comes in Many Forms. . .

- Waking up to tunes

- My dog

- Biology - even though it rapes me...

- Candles

- Heat

- Day long texting conversations

- YouTube

- Baby Clothes .

What a goddamn square

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY!

It's a square.

OMG! it's mind blowing.

So mind bloggling.

Square

1-2-3-4.

the blind side

It gives me great pleasure to tell the world that the same night that Twilight came out so did The Blind Side a story starting Sandra Bullock about Mike Ore. The premis of this movie has awed me and brought many to tears. It brings me to tears to be so humbled by the world that kids young and old, every race and religion join in a small, packed theatre to watch an inspiring movie. This moves me. As we all share an experience together, in sync, at one time. This moves me.

GG

Life's short

Talk fast

SOMETING

Something I have recently learned is:

CMT is life .

Problem

The problem isn't that I don't have anything to say,

It's that I don't have the time, or the memory space to say it.

This week alone! I have/had:

1 quiz

1 test

1 massive annotated bibliography

1 huge media project

and i have two jobs to put on top of that.

Also, include that I need to up my grade's it's not helping my blog.

As soon as I think of something worth blogging about, or remembering - I'll post it .

Busy Little Bumble Bee

My days were always busy. Always. But since I have become avaliable for two hours within my day, I now work. At GoodLife Fitness Centre. OMG.

Showers

I am convinced that showers have something against me. Seriously.

Not only was my fan on, but it seemed to not do anything! It was so foggy in my steamy shower that I couldn't see when getting out.

Getting out of my hot shower (which I thoroughly enjoyed) I was reaching for the towel, that I totally forgot wasn't there.

Immediately I thought "FML!" So i went to the door, where they are all hung - and my MOTHER insisting that I am a dirty child put both my body towel and hair towel in the wash. They were clean! I got them out yesturday! But heaven forbid, she thinks everything is dirty all the time.

SO! I then proceeded to run outside of the washroom - butt naked, screaming for no one to come upstairs, scrambling for a towel. I couldn't find one, so after going through 2 other drawers, I found one! ONE!

(Inevitably they were all in the wash) So i grabbed it, to discover it was a hand towel. That is what i dried my body and hair with. Fun?

I know I have completely embarassed myself. But I thought maybe, just maybe! Not only my shower hates me.

X

Yo!

I don't mind when you try and mess around with my mind,

But messing around with my accounts,

Hotmail.

Gmail.

Blog.

Facebook.

Youtube.

Twitter.

Not cool. Ever.

I'm not going to approach you about it.

I'll just let you sit there and stew.

Don't mess this up again.

I ask of you,

Nicely.

LIBERATE

please watch it

rate it

so we can win!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nv3qjkA6cWo

BFGW

There's no point in dreaming ,

Things are never going to change.

GQ

Everything in this magazine,

Actually sends a good message.

C M

I knew it all along.

I guess I just wasn't paying attention to it.

I don't like you.

You're rude.

Mean.

And inconsiderate.

I hate when you are around.

There is only so much pretending we can do.

No one wants a negative person around,

No matter who they are.

Go away.

Back off,

Learn.

MS

My friend was laughing at me today, well this morning.

Because I walked into the school dancing. For some reason, he finds it hard to believe that one person can be this happy.

I am, I always, always find a reason to smile. :] There is always a good side to everything. Believe me when I say this. You give me a situation, I'll find the bright side.

It's hard to be the happy one all the time.

But the way I see it is:

If I'm not the one to dance, and sing and be silly yet responsible and serious, who else is going to bring a smile to the people I hold dear to me.

I love to dance, sing, laugh, and make jokes.

If you're my friend. I hope you appreciate my silliness.

Skip it.

Disclaimer: This is just for me. I love these 3 songs. Lyrics I love.

I love the way you sound in the morning.

We're on the phone, and without a warning..

I realize you laugh is the best sound I have ever heard.

I like the way I can't keep my focus,

I watch you talk, you didn't notice.

I hear the words, but all I can think is

We should be together.

Every time you smile, I smile,

Every time you shine, I'll shine for you!

I like the way your hair falls in you face,

You got the keys to me,

I love each freckle on your face.

Oh, I've never been so wrapped up.

Honey, I like the way you're everything I ever wanted.

I had time to think it oh-over,

and all I can say is come closer.

Take a deep breath and fall into me :]

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky,

I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why.

I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you.

Untouchable burning brighter then the sun,

And when you're close I feel like coming undone.

In the middle of the night, when I'm in this dream,

It's like a million little stars,

Spelling out your name.

Say that we'll be together,

Little taste of heaven.

It's half full, and I won't wait here all day.

I know you're saying that you'll be here, anyway.

But you're untouchable, burning brighter then the sun.

Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone.

In the middle of the night, when I'm in this dream,

It's like a million little stars,

Spelling our your name.

Saying that we'll be together.

In the middle of the night, we could form this dream.

I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me.

Say that we'll be together,

Little taste of heaven.

-

You had me,

To get her.

Here I thought it was me.

I was changing, arranging,

My life to fit your lies.

It's all said, and all done.

I gave it all for the long run.

Did she say the same thing?

I guess this is goodbye and goodluck.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I'm sorry for changing,

I'm sorry it had to be this way.

Believe me it's easier just to pretend.

But I won't apologize for who I am.

Remember,

The time when,

You said you were out with your best friend.

But it wasn't the best friend,

You knew I thought you meant.

I used to accept it,

I didn't know I could be free.

But I am,

And I won't go back,

You so don't deserve me.

I don't even want to be her.

Cash Out.

I know what he means now.

By them not being completely intact with the world.

They are here, but consumed in each other.

I love them both.

But they need reality checks.

:] .

I don't care what you think.

This is a good thing.

Waffles .

All i ask for is real butter. no "it's not butter, its margarine.."... shit! i want butter. becel baby. and aunt jamima. i just wanna see her face every time i feel like adding to my one ab ! ughh

i wish i could tag you in this . . .

In the middle of the night

When I'm in this dream

It's like a million little stars

Spelling out your name

You gotta come on, come on

Say that we'll be together

Come on, come on

Little taste of heaven

Wow

The smallest words

Make me feel so much better

Thank you

:]

Showers...UGH

So I have many pet peeves. And I had to blog about this one before I hit the hay. So, do you have the shower with a curtain? I do. I used to have that patterned glass, which I loved and adored. But now, my parents decided a while back to go with the curtain. Oh my lord! The hassle it causes and disruption during a peaceful shower is astonishing! Seriously. I need my space, and I love it. I love my bubble. For example, when I'm at a desk with someone else. You have your half, I have mine. Mine will be organized in the order that I need things and will be up to my anal standards. You! I don't care what you do with your side, as long as it doesn't spill onto my side. Simply put, I love my space!

So, any time there is a gust of wind, or for some reason there is any sort breeze that blows through the locked washroom the curtain always, without a doubt! will start to spread and take over the little room I already have to sing and dance. I can't stand it. I absolutely hate when my space is encroached by an inanimate object. I then have to hold it down with my feet and reach my stubby body under the shower in order to properly carry out hygienic standards. Or continuously push the stupid beige-random themed curtain aside; which of course only seems to provoke it more, which then starts to grow out of anger like a Squig.

That was my rant. Thank you for listening.

little taste of heaven.

it's weird .

this feeling.

that i get.

now, more then before.

it's weird.

do i say something?

stay quiet?

talk more?

text more?

im confused.

please jump.

tell me.

I'm just throwing this out there.

I've never seen so many Muslim people in my life then this year.

I'm just sayin'

Tay Shweezy!

I'm loving the Taylor Swift Platinum Edition!

LOVE IT!

What I heard ..

Today I heard a little boy tell his younger brother why some tree leaves are red. This is how the conversation went:

Younger Brother: Mommy, why are some leaves red and some orange?

Mommy: I don't know sweet pea... Sorry.

Older Brother: I know!

Younger Brother: You do? What?! What?!! WHAT?!!!!

Older Brother: I'll tell you, but you have to promise not to tell mom...Promise?

Younger Brother: yeah.. shh..!

Older Brother: Okay, the read leaves is for everyone who has died this year. The orange, everyone who is going to die. Yellow, young kids, like you who will catch the cold.. (giggles)

Younger Brother: (Falls flat on the floor, starts to ball his eyes out!) MOMMY! MIKEY SAID IM GOING TO DIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE!!!! MAAAAAAAAMEEEEEEEE!!!!

Skipping.

Our lives.

We are so busy.

Tomorrow is going to be so busy.

Tomorrow is going to be crazy!

The gas that we use, the time we spend on our asses. It amazes me. All of it.

OMG.

Thanks babe.

He's taught me over a period of time that I shouldn't apologize for who I am. That I am a good person. He has taught me that I shouldn't be what anyone else wants me to be. I shouldn't be sorry and that I shouldn't pretend, even though it may be easier. He has taught me that I should stand up. Strong. And he will be with me. No matter what.

I thank you for that.

Wishes

I wish there was a way,

That you and I

Could become closer,

Together.

And see each other,

More.

I wish we could

Talk.

Just the two of us.

More.

I know its hard,

for both of us.

Just,

Please...

Make this wish come true.

Facebook.

I've had it for less then 12 hours, and already my inbox is consumed with 163 emails.
This is mental.

Family.

I walk around.

Stand and stop.

You say hi.

I say hi.

You shop.

I go.

I'm introduced.

Big step.

Reaction:

woah.

This Chase.

This chase you and I are on.

I'm prepared.

I'm ready.

Lets run after each other.

And never know.

Let's go.

I'm ready.

For it all.

For everything.

For the fall.

EC

I was talking to someone one day.

About cheating.

Emotional cheating.

My friend thinks that seeing someone she loves holding hands is worse then making out.

Emotional cheating.

I didn't understand.

And I didn't agree.

But I know someone who emotionally cheats.

And she's right there to see it.

I wonder if she cares.

I wonder if she realizes.

I'm pretty sure he knows.

He should stop.

Cause it'll just hurt the three people.

Machine Machine Machine

favourite song ever

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2ZikdQ4HRo

why cant i see you

you took me to a place that wasnt safe

for me and you

you saw the milky way at night

you put up a fight

with me

now we're leaving

what happened to the monday nights

we would fall as sleep at 3

i think that we that we could be the same

i think im insane

my brain is telling me

im a machine

machine, machine.

my friends got a forty with a fifty on

said the worlds gonna end

but i thinks hes wrong

you know its true

the things i do

for you

and me

now we're leaving

machine

machine

:|

I’m so hungry. All the time. Fucking metabolism. I can’t handle eating all this food. Yesturday I ate.. in total:

2 Yogurts, 1 Banana, 1 Plum, 2 Ham and Cheese Sandwiches, 2 Vitamin Waters, 2 Slices of Deluxe Pizza, 1 Water, 1 BIG ASS Bag of Smartfood, 1 Container of Raspberries with Whipped Cream, 3 Slices of Pizza, 1 Yogurt, 1 Large Tea, 10 Chicken Wings.

…. Yeah, that was my reaction.

As I sit here..

...watching Hair Spray, and all I see are student running by. Getting their early morning coffee. Meeting friends, printing off their assignments and essays. I find it funny, how all they care about school. Granted, you pay thousands for this overpriced-not really worth it-education. But when did students stop socializing, and getting along, and having fun at school. When did school become the most serious time in your lives? When did it stop being the best time of your life. Enjoy it. Study, but have fun. Smile.

I have a crush.

On a centaur...

Aren't they FREAKIN cool?!

HH

I hold you close in my heart.

I wish we could talk more.

I wish I could help.

I wish I wasn't such a dunce when I see you.

I wish I could be there.

I would take your position,

In a heart beat.

Don't second guess that.

I love you.

I'm sorry.

Hell

There is this woman I know,

Helena.

She smiles,

And smiles.

Laughs,

And laughs.

I...

I'm in awe.

I feel...

Like One Of The Guys. And I Like It.

It's us 5.

All the time.

I Like It.

So .

A quick update on life, my fashaa (father) caught me with my tattoos... so I lost my computer, my phone .. basically my life line. UNTIL! my mother and i couldnt get a hold of each other, and then she yammered on to my dad, so i got my phone back at least.

I have nothing really intelligent to say. SO.. BYE !

WHY

I wonder as to why people always seem to thank God for the smallest things. I'm sure you do it too, and often at that. You probably thank God for "finding my ring!" or "finding my assignment!"

I catch myself doing it too, I thanked God for finding my soap. But why don't we thank God for living every day, or for the people around us, or the animals, opportunities and beautiful things he has put on this earth.

So, do me a favour,

Thank him for the bigger things...

Every once in a while.

Owl City.

This is so annoying!

I hate when I have been listening to a band, for like.. EVER! And all of a sudden, everyone likes them. UGH! Great for the band, but it annoys me when people are like "Ohemgee, I like, totally love them! I've been to listening to them for weeks!" Shut up! I've been listening to them for years, before high school, before anyone knew you existed.

I'm sorry that was an angry blog,

people have the capability to annoy me.

Don't ever think...

Please,

I beg of you.

Don't ever think,

That for one moment...

I stop thinking about you.

Whether you are my main thought,

or not.

You will always be a thought,

And a special one at that.

Please,

Don't ever think that,

I have stopped

Appreciating you,

Caring for you,

Or wondering about you.

Please...

Don't ever think that,

I don't care.

OLD DAYS.

My sister just informed me that I used to strip all my barbies, cut off all their hair, and then! my brother used to rip off the heads.

As they continue to bash my troubled childhood, they talk about how I always lost the clothes and my mom would be in the store every week replacing it.

Nice walk down memory lane SISTER! :]

ALLEN

My dad said today

"I trust the name Allen."

Granted he was talking about the apple juice company.

But I was thinking about someone else.

I've

been there,

done that,

messed around.

im having fun,

dont put me down.

i'll never let you sweep me off my feet.

i wont let you in again,

the messages ive tried to send,

my informations just not going in.

im burning bridges,

shore to shore.

i break away,

for something more,

im not turned up to love,

until its cheap.

this time baby, i'll be bulletproof.

i wont let you turn around

and tell me how im much too proud

to walk away from something

when its dead.

do-do-do your dirty words

come out to play

when you are hurt

there should be certain things,

that should be left unsaid.

lifes too short for me to stop

oh baby, your time is running out.

i wont let you turn around

and tell me now im much too proud,

all you do if fill me up with doubt.

this time baby, i'll be bulletproof.

just for you babe.

Bubbles.. Bubbles...

The teardrops I cry,

It don't have a price.

Loving you is cherry pie.

Promise I'll be kind,

But I won't stop until that boy is mine.

Mm.

1 2 3

I don't trust people.

And don't think for a second that I actually trust you.

We may laugh, giggle, shop and talk.

But I don't trust you, not for a minute.

I'm keeping my personal life personal,

and my private life private.

You are on the outside,

my best act yet,

I hope you realize that.

All I Ever Wanted.

was an in between to escape this desperate scene . . .

Himmy Himmy Shim Shim

So I'm clearly eating Doritos, Seedless Grapes, and Peanut Butter(which isn't in the frame).

My doggie, and his unfortunate nickname; is in my room...

I thought the only reason for this is:

He wants all my food.

Turns out...

He just wants to be with me.

Seedless BABY!

Who knew...

That GRAPES

Could be so satisfying,

So filling...

AND!

SO!

SCRUMDILLIUMPIOUS!

(i think i spelt that right)

SEEDLESS IS THE ONLY WAY TO GO!

INTRODUCING: my sister...

How nice of my sister to say THIS REMINDS HER OF ME !

HOW RUDE :[

ilu(:

TEXT HAPPY.

I love getting texts. Just the excitement of who they are from.. and getting anxious when thinking of what it could say... depending on the person.

But some that I recieve .. from certain people... just light me up. You know who you are. At around 1pm, when this kid is in Advanced Functions, it just made my day. Kept me going to be dead honest :]

TTYL.

AR.

So I knew he and I were friends. But I never realized that once we sit down and face each other HOW good of friends we truly are. I love him for talking as much as I. I love him for being himself, not changing, and understanding me completely.

Thanks for being BOMB.

Love ya Long Time .

Bare.

So, I haven't been wearing makeup lately, maybe just mascara.

But today I had my freshly washed hair up in multiple bobby-pins and in one BRIGHT orange hair tie... and three people said I look nice.

I woke up late.

I didn't do anything.

I barely had the uniform on.

And I felt beautiful.

I love how one compliment(or three) can make you feel like queen(or king) of the world.

So NEW GOAL! Compliment one person a day.

Mission: Compliment ... Braylen in Bio. He's a cutie-pattootie :)

Do You Do This Too?

Do you eat Peanut Butter right out of the jar?I do.. with a spoon... and so does my dog.

Don't judge. I love it :]

PS: A good way to eat peanut butter is in between two crackers and butter on one cracker and peanut butter on another... shmushing it together and watching it go through the little holes in the cracker.. and them.. EATING IT :] Try it !

sye gatel gatel, garukin dong ?!

If you don't have them,

Consider yourself SO lucky!

I get the "itchies" every once in a while...

And when I get them...

BOY! Do I get them good!

This has been on going for a couple hours.

Absolutely ridonkulous!

I can't handle it.

DISCLAIMER: blame allen if the.. asian? language is wrong(:

Wise Beyond Your Years

This is what I imagine,

our conversations

would be like in

a movie.

Vanilla Twilight.

I'll watch the night turn light blue,

But it's not the same without you,

Because it takes two to whisper quietly,

The silence isn't so bad,

Till I look at my hands and feel sad,

Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly.

TLC.

I need to go to bed. I cannot be tired tomorrow. School 8-2:30 GoodLife 3-10, then I'll have to come home and clean my room. There are no if and's or but's about it. Gotta sleep.

I know I have to go to bed when I have seen every show on TLC more then once...

Bright Star

There is a holiness to the hearts affection, you know nothing of that.

A brilliant poet, and the bright start who was his shining light.

Oh, I wished we were butterflies and lived but three summer days.

Three such days with you I could fill with more delight,

Then fifty common years could ever contain.

OH SUGAR FOOT!

Yes, I actually say that! I've been laughed at before about that, but now my buddy says it too!

And people are starting to say "Anywhoozle!" What can I say? I'm a catchy girl!

The point of this post: I'M SO JAZZED FOR THIS WEEK! :]

Monday(today): Today, i slept and did homework, sooo I'm happy

Tuesday: WORKOUT! /work :) and i get to see everybody again..

Wednesday: OMG! My day off! I can't wait. Oh i have plans to go out with like 10 people :) (ar<3)

Thursday: vocal! can't wait.. and work (FINALLY!)

Friday: probably go on a bffl date again..

Saturday: OMG! Work in the morning, then pumpkin picking! Then out for the day :) I can't wait.. it's going to be amazing!

TURKEY!

it's been an amazing weekend.

my room hasn't really been touched.

and my mom said im not allowed to leave until its clean.

so it seems that i won't be at school on monday.

im going to bed in an hour.

so what is she gonna do about it?

hope everyone had a joyus weekend.

My bangs are wild.

That's all I have to say .

Happy Thanksgiving!

I call it: my messy corner.

My dad calls it: too much clothes.

My mom calls it: your problem.

My brother calls it: OMG :O

My sister calls it: all your shit.

My dog calls it: a pile of fun!

I basically celebrated Thanksgiving yesturday! But there is no reason that anyone else shouldn't be enjoying this extended weekend. I definitely want another day (considering all I've been doing is homework and cleaning royal messes in my room!). Anywhoozle! Have a good thanksgiving, eat a lot! Be MERRY!

Fall For Many Reasons.

I have nothing witty to say with this lovely picture.

But when I do, I'll edit this post. 10|11|09

PS. It's 10:01, and I'm exhausted! FML

C

It's officially f*cked up.

Clearly, if I'm holding the letter in my hand!

Gobble Gobble Gobble

I hope the following people have an EXCEPTIONALLY GREAT Turkey Weekend!

Allen Tedjo
Chad Mason
Edris Paiwand
Cassie Jorgensen
Zachary LaNoue
Lauren Prahbu
Hayley Hinkley
Denise Wint
Matt Del Vecchio
Bianca Del Vecchio
Kristen Mederios
ASHLEY!
Anthony Rondeau
Morgan Elliott :)
Karan The Great
Tashan Harry
Nick Sousa
Andrew Nadeau
Colin Thorne
Dani Fearon
Amanda Ashton
Samantha Perrotta
Ana Vera
Ritu Mehta
Mariya the Fabulous
Eric Tall
Jordan My Main Man!
Iqra Ghanchi
Brunelle Lewis
Erin Landry
Meghan Moylan
Anna Fieger (did i spell that right?)
Pavel The TallOne
Denise Christie
Dom McCollum
Erica My Love
Rohan Malik
Andrew Nunez
Andrew Cruz
Chris McCollum

You know you are all special to me, but that's the shortest list I could think of.
DISCLAIMER: Family not included.

A New Rhythm

I would also like to say that I am proud of myself, because I have found a rhythm to opening on Monday.
Wake up at 7:45 shower, get dressed, do my hair and makeup and grab my stuff for the day.
Out the door by 8:15
Timmies by 8:18
On my way to work by 8:23
At work by 8:37
Inside by 8:40
Do everything and eat by 8:55
Open doors with scanner up by 8:58
And let the day run smoothly!
I know you're jealous...

He came out of the darkness, like a man from outer space...

It doesn't even matter that I haven't seen his face...

FOOD?

NO SUSHI FO ME!

In Total.

Today I took two breaks. One earlier on, on my blog for 10 minutes.
And I just took/am taking a twenty minute break.
Today hasn't been too bad at the gym. No one is buying anything but all the ladies are trying on everything.
I enjoy taking two different breaks, and it's not too shabby because my first 10 minutes was a lull when no one was in here. And just now for the past little while no one has been in the gym, so I finally decided to grab food.
I was hungry, and of course, just my luck! There was nothing at the hot counter, and I cannot eat Sushi again. Cannot. My stomach will turn over.
I never realized how much I really like this job,
But it dawned on me today how much I not only enjoy it, but appreciate it.
I know a lot of people coming in, and just talking to people is fun to me.
I met Jennifer... something ruther... and she is really sweet. She told me how proud she is to be a Godmother, and she has confidence I'll be a good one at that.
I enjoy seeing the same faces, or answer questions that aren't ridiculous and I absolutely LOVE standing at the front desk singing and dancing around to "YOU ARE LISTENING TO...Galaxy..." as that awesome voice would say!
The ladies don't mind pointing and laughing at me either. This would be one of my first times not having my break at the front, but currently there are two people in the gym, not including Sam and her PT appointment.
I already pre-cleaned everything, and entered in my stats and hours.
I'm so productive. I can't wait to get home and have SWEET POTATOES. omg :)
Have a good thanksgiving, and eat a ton of turkey.

I figured it out!

I have figured out how to crack the system at GoodLife Fitness!
I needed to do this for a long time, because! On Sunday (a regular day at work) there is no one in the gym for quite some time.
A class is about to finish,
And I have to go clean up after them!
Exciting...
I don't mind what I do in my job, I just wish that I could.. I guess, do more!
There is a position open.
And I'm kind of scared to tell Ritu that I want it.
Granted, I'm not the number one seller as a CSR, but I'm pretty good!
I prefer to sell memberships.
I have sold only one, and I sold it in about 10 minutes, give or take a couple seconds.
I enjoy selling tanning, but I'm just not good at it.
I don't mind selling clothes, but I already do that at my other job... Every other day of the week.
And I would love to sit down with people, convince them, and show them how great it is to workout and live a healthier life style.
The position is more demanding, but I want it.
I'm driven towards it.
I know a lot of people who want a membership. And I wanna give it to them!

Change.

10|10|09 epic

"Big Blue!"

OMG!

Today was an amazing day, in my life.

OMG!

That's mainly what I have to say.

Today, this morning, I slept in for the first time in a long time, and didn't have to work at any job. It was amazing. Times 5000 percent.

Then! I went apple picking/mud-sliding/raspberry eating and picking/ gourd picking up/ pumpking finding but not buying/ sausage eating(which I haven't done in years!)

And then! I got to go JUMBO EGG getting with my daddy-o! Then! Then! He let me pick out pumpkins and sit in a HUGE "Big Blue"(as i call it) chair.

And then!! We went home, napped, and went to a Leafs v. Penn's game.

Leafs lost 5-2. BUT! I have decided what my new tat is gonna be! :]

Words of Wisdom

Second Chances Never Matter.

People Never Change.

cave in

please take a long hard look through your textbook,

cause i'm history.

when i strap my helmet on,

i'll be long gone,

cause i've been dieing to leave.

peace.

I have nothing for you.

I've heard that many times before. I have the chance everyday, and every minute to delete blogs, and forget parts about my past. But I choose not to."Why?" you always ask... I don't because my previous blogs are always changeable, every spelling mistake, story or quote, everything can change with a click of a button. I choose not to change the past, because then you will never remember what you felt in that moment, there will be nothing to look upon.

But maybe,

one day,

I'll have nothing for you.

I told you so.

(omg, i had to share this picture...)

You're my Taylor Lautner.

A couple words...

Chin up, chin up Everybody loves a happy face Wear it, share it It’ll brighten up the darkest place  Twinkle, sparkle Let a little sunshine in You’ll be on the right side Looking at the bright side Up with your chinny chin, chin up!  Chin up, chin up Put a little laughter in your eyes Brave it, save it Even though you’re feeling otherwise Rise up, wise up Make a little smile begin You’ll be happy hearted Once you get it started Up with your chinny chin chin!  Chin down, you can’t come frowning Turn around Starting, clowning Think sad Your troubles double Think glad They burst like bubbles

Every little time your spirits wilt Give your attitude an upward tilt Twinkle, sparkle Make a little fun begin You’ll be on the right side Looking at the bright side Up with your chinny chin Chin up!

Let it be.

I've learnt that poking around,

and maybe questioning,

or over thinking everything isn't the way to go.

I'm not too sure how to react,

or if it's a bad thing.

But what I do know is that...

You are my friend,

a weird one at that,

a hybrid to me.

So, no offence love,

be prepared for my stupid questions,

constant texting,

and lovely posts about tu!

I'll let you be,

but with be bothering you along the way :)

It's not that fun .

To be honest.

I don't enjoy being the girl to plan everything, to initiate everything. I'm not a fan of it, and I dont like it.

I don't like to be the one who is asking all the questions,

Or planning everything for us.

I rather to be told where to go, and what to do.

For my sake, make a decision and let me know about it.

This can't be one sided forever.

You have to make a move.

At some point.

Cutest Being Created.

I have many friends, but two in particular have touched my heart recently.

Morgan and Allen.

They both have told me similar things.

I'm starting to believe them,

With all my heart and soul.

For that, I thank you.

Both.

124.

I just wish that you could see things through my eyes.

The way I feel.

I wish I knew the way you felt.

This would make everything,

Absolutely everything,

Ten times easier.

I've been told to give up.

I've been told to move on.

I've been told off.

I can't let up,

And I'm not sure I'll give up.

Nothing is a guarantee.

But once more,

I need answers.

Clarification.

Please.

I ask, nicely.

UPDATE!

Sleep,

Apperently you need it to grow, function, heal...

It's essential!

I however,

will not be getting any!

WISH ME LUCK!

love you long time.

Homework!

Bio- study like a bitch!

Human Growth - colour brain

Philosophy - Essay

Individuals and Families - make poster !

FML, im not sleeping tonight.

but i do need food. btw, if you see me write a blog without the letter "C" its be_ause i broke it last night in my genius efforts to _lean my ma_ keys, that looked dirty, but really weren't all that dirty. so instead i may put a "_" like shown b4. wish me lu_k.

AND DONT FORGET TO GIVE SOMEONE A HUGE EACH DAY! tomorrow: zach.

Just do it.

That can be taken in so many ways... I know what you are thinking... sex.. dirty minded readers!

I meant something else.

Hopefully this is a hint buddy.

Please figure it out :]

J

dark blue - jacks mannequin

geek in the pink - jason mraz

im yours - jason mraz

99 problems - jay z

off that - jay z ft. drake

you'll go far - jenn grant

love song? - jennifer lopez

beautiful soul - jesse mccartney

chase the light - jimmy eat world

games - jonas brothers

paranoid - jonas brothers

pushin' me away - jonas brothers

i got rhythm - judy garland

You are a great person. Don't ever forget that.

Maybe I don't understand you fully.

But I do know that we are friends.

Friends who help each other,

Friends who care about each other.

To me,

You put too much pressure on yourself.

Please calm down.

I know it's hard.

Been there.

Done that.

But you deserve better,

Then stress, fear, hate and loss.

You deserve,

Love, friends, family, happiness.

I can help most of the time.

Just don't forget me,

I'm here,

As much as possible.

Have I told you?

That you are a great person.

Please don't ever forget that.

Face Drop.

I love him with all my heart and soul. He is always there for me. I guess it's true what they say, love is blind. It amazes me that I was so oblivious to how much I loved my friends, and how much they loved me.

I just recieved the best call in the world, from my best friend, Colin. I couldn't help but smile at our stupid conversation.

I've missed him so much. We never have time for each other anymore. It's unfortunate, because every Thursday was our day. But no more. I'm a slave of work, which I love. But I miss him too much.

I miss too many people. But I talk to them enough to know that they still love me, and from them to know that I love them with all my heart.

You know who you are. Thanks for being the best guys :]

Est.

I'm Meagan Moylan's :]

Relationship Established:

Monday October 5, 2009

@ 9:42am

Tik ToK

For some reason, I feel so good tonight. Things were falling out of place yesturday, and they feel like they are falling into place today. This week is going to feel crazy because of the more things that are due, and the many jobs that I have. I seem to always have to be in 10 places at once. That's too much, but I can't do too much about it.

I'm starting to feel more confident in the friends that I have made. Seriously, I can't believe they are all mine. :] My new favourite song...

TiK ToK - Ke$ha (monday morning music :] LISTEN & LOVE IT )

Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy
(Hey, what up girl?)
Put my glasses on, Im out the door - Im gonna hit this city (Lets go)
Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
Cause when I leave for the night, I aint coming back
Im talking - pedicure on our toes, toes
Trying on all our clothes, clothes
Boys blowing up our phones, phones
Drop-toping, playing our favorite cds
Pulling up to the parties
Trying to get a little bit tipsy

Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Ima fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party dont stop no
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh

Aint got a care in world, but got plenty of beer
Aint got no money in my pocket, but Im already here
Now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger
Im talking about - everybody getting crunk, crunk
Boys tryna touch my junk, junk
Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk
Now, now - we goin til they kick us out, out
Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us -

Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Ima fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party dont stop no
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh

DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
You got me now
You got that sound
Yeah, you got me
DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
Put your hands up
Put your hands up

No, the party dont start until I walk in

Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Ima fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party dont stop no
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh

So Many Things...

I have so many stories to tell, but right now...

I'm sorry that this has happened to you.

Call if you need someone to talk to.

Or text me.

I'm a night owl.

And I'll be here.

Remember:

You're the only guy I like.

Frodo's Nose Is Long and He Wear's a Tross...

Yep, I'm watching the Hunchback of Notre Dame.

I know you're jealous!

Congratulations on Passing Grade 3!

While in my room, switch my tape from Hercules to The Hunchback of Notre Dame, I found a booket in the tape case.

A pamphlet, thanks me for passing Grade 3 :] It has many prayers and quotes, yet one struck me the most.

Always Remember To...

Laugh a lot. Love a lot.

Listen to you heart,

and follow it where it leads you.

Do what you love.

Love yourself,

and share that love with others.

That is the way that we truly

make a difference,

add beauty to our world,

and give sometime precious

to ourselves and others.

Enjoy your life!

VCR

There is it...

In all it's glory.

My century old VCR.

In my room, with my DVD player and cable box on top...

All attached to my plasma :]

I love...

I love that I'm a part of you life.

But I hate the position I hold.

Let's fix that (:

Carreraaaaa

Is it just me who is curious about everything?

I can lay in bed, or sit up (like I'm currently doing) and just look around the room, or into my full length big-ass mirrors and just have questions pop into my head...

Seriously, everything is questionable.

Yet! I have learnt not to question all, or else you will wrack your brain for an answer that is unreachable.

Can't handle that?

Too bad. :)

I got that clarification I needed,

and now,

I woke up,

and I feel so much better about it.

Thanks for consoling me love. You're the only boy I like.